Another one bites the dust!

Boys, men, males....they are all the same. We try to hope that they aren't but even the nice guys end up being just as douchy. Maybe it's not always them being douch bags. Sometimes they turn out to be more manipulative and clingy than the girls they claim to hate. 

I'm not even kidding. This one guy I was seeing did the typical I don't want to commit thing. When I finally had enough and decided to take time to think about if that's what I wanted to settle for I realized that was just it. I was settling for the comfort he promised. But I was settling just the same so I ended things. He said I would be too toxic of a friend so we wouldn't be able to be friends. I'm not going to lie, being told you're toxic is harsh and hurts. But anyways I ended things he walked out but then he got all crazy! He started going to my best friends boyfriend as his confidant (like I'm not going to hear what is said) first step of becoming the manipulative guy. Started with him saying how much he missed me and then to how he had loved me.Then he puts a letter under my door saying he messed up and would give me space. Kinda creepy because my downstairs for has a pass lock. So I found it weird. And then the texts and phone calls started. Making dates and not askin if I wanted to go first. So I had to put on my mean girl panties and tell him to stop it all. 

Most recent guy seemed different. I would go to his place and watch movies and talk. He didn't make moves I didn't want. Sounds great, but then he did something no guys done. He made a date plan with me and then just stopped talking to me. No reason, no I'm sorry no excuses. 

This just makes me feel I'm right when I say the nicest guys are the biggest jerks. They are nice enough to get you to put your gaurd down and then they show their true colors. But you can't go for the dicks because they are who they are and you get what they present to you. So in dating you can't go for the nice guys, you can't go for the bad guys. Because it doesn't matter, they all suck. All we can do is try and find the asshole who we can stand. There are no Noah's or Gabes so we need to shield our hearts with a coat of stone. Hearts of stone don't give a fuck. 

That's my rant. Guys suck and in my experience they all are the same in the end. 

My 30 Week Goal

Last year I got really excited to do this race called Tough Mudder. A lack of transportation and more importantly my lack for being able to run a mile, stopped me from doing the race. It was one of my 2014 new years resolutions to complete the race this year. I started training late and well I hate exercising. Swimming use to be my thing in high school but now with a full time job it is hard to find the time to spend the required amount of time in the pool. But swimming was great...you never felt like you were sweating even after the roughest workouts. The Tough Mudder requires training unlike anything I've ever done before. So i have a gym membership and am slowly making it a thing to go regularly. 10-12 miles of obstacles...not just any but military style obstacles probably best trained for in a gym.  Okay I should explain why I want to do this in the first place..

So ever since I can remember people have always doubted my abilities. Since I'm skinny and girly people tend to think I can't lift heavy objects. Which is dumb because I so can. But I've been getting the "Hey let me help you carry that" or the "uhhh are you sure you have that??" followed by a " oh damn I guess you have it" for most of my life. Those small little comments eat at me. So I want to do something that people will look at and think I won't complete and PROVE THEM ALL WRONG!!!!

Back to me being a lazy bumb. Well not really lazy, I work 9:45-7:30 5 days a week with split days off. It's exhausting! But I love my job and lucked out at finding what I want to do with my life so young. When I say lazy I mean working out wise. I was blessed to have a fast metabolism and a body that doesn't need much upkeep so working out hasn't been a priority of mine. Until I decided to do this race that is! Now I have 30 weeks to train to run 12 miles and to lift my body up walls and stuff. So far I can run .75 miles without stopping. I have a long ways to go! I've been talking it up so I have more face to lose if I don't go through with the race. Which I will! I'm also trying to get some friends to do it with me but I don't think they completely understand what the race is. But everything that is raised for this goes to The Wounded Warrior Project which is an amazing cause. I'll probably post more about this in the future. As for tonight I'm tired and am going to bed...all this talk about working out made me regret not going to the gym today. So gym tomorrow!

I hope you have a wonderful night!

Introductions please!!

I'll be honest, I've been having a rough time in my life which is why I decided to start this particular blog. I started on a while back but it has bad memories associated with it and I wanted to start fresh. I feel like everyone has an inner voice and I've been smothering mine...which can't have healthy side effects....so it's time to let the inner voice sing! I'm recently 22, recently unattached and recently found my balls to say what I feel. If you stumble upon this and want to enjoy my life roller coaster YAY! if not no hard feelings. So without further ado......

I'm Katherine! It's a pleasure to meet you. I live in this wonderful town in Washington state called Bellingham. It's a place I love and hate. I LOVE the views and scenery....I HATE the weather. I live alone with my two cats, Abu and Nala. I've been out of the parents home since 2010 but I've never lived alone...that is until January of this year when I had 3 weeks to find me and my furry babies a place to live. I was living in a house with 6 roommates so to say it's a change is a bit of an understatement. It's a change but I'm getting use to it. I do love the fact that I can have all my clothes be clean without a since piece of dirty laundry ;) I love my alone naked time. It makes me appreciate my body and makes me comfortable and more confident. If you've never tried I highly suggest it! It really does wonders for a girl. I'm really an open book so this blog will probably cover whatever comes across my mind. With that said I think this introduction is long enough and it's time to start this blog ride!